Twisted Bar

Your Mystical Adventure!
Find the Divine in Everything!

by Tom Razzeto

Copyright 2007 - Tom Razzeto

Twisted Bar

Chapter 4 - To Love Like God - The Essay

Now that you have heard the poem in it's entirety, I'd like to go deeper into each stanza, starting with the first. Here it is:

   I wanted the world to be different
   So I told the world it could stick it
   But the only thing stuck
   Was the me in my rut
   A face so long you couldn't miss it

I start the poem by stating that when I don't get what I want and I emotionally reject an aspect of the world as it is, I experience sadness, difficulty and emotional pain. If I constantly find fault with the world, I will constantly suffer.

And what determines the amount, the intensity, of the suffering that I experience? Surprisingly, the degree that I suffer does not match the amount of the difference between what I want and what I have or my belief of how things should be and how things really are. The degree that I suffer matches how strongly I choose to emotionally reject the situation and this is related to how much importance I choose to attach to that particular subject.

The following is an example of an extremely minor difference held as greatly important and strongly judged as not acceptable.

I remember when I was a 12-year-old boy with a brand new bicycle. It was my pride and joy. But a little white plastic cover for the tip of the kickstand got lost after about two weeks. This cover was only meant to be used while the bicycle was on display in the store. Once the bike was sold, the cover was meant to be thrown away.

But I did not hold that view and I wanted my bike to always be perfect, just like it was when it was new! When the cover got lost, boy, that was, in my eyes, a very serious unsolvable problem and I cried and cried even though my bike still worked perfectly. I finally got over it and never thought about it again except as an example of me choosing to create an emotionally painful experience.

Perhaps that experience was unnecessary but perhaps the situation was actually created by me, my higher-self or God to offer me a lesson about attachment and judgment with an example that did not harm my body or even my bike.

In this example, wanting is an emotionally charged desire. I like to use the word "prefer" for wanting something without the emotional charge. In other words, if I don't get what I want, I suffer, if I don't get what I prefer, I'm still pretty happy. The subject can be the same, it's the emotional charge that's gone.

And ponder this: if something really should be different, wouldn't it actually be different?

Are there examples in your life where something used to bother you a lot but now when they happen, it's no big deal? Can you learn to emotionally accept more and more of the world exactly as it is?

Second Stanza

   Align the whole world to my wishes
   Especially romantic kisses
   Only then will I choose
   Some delight not to lose
   But this grand plan it often misses

Now, of course, many of us do experience periods of time when we are pretty happy and perhaps even ecstatic about our situation. Life is certainly not all suffering, even if we're not enlightened. When we have things the way we want, we give ourselves permission and we choose to "push the happiness button", which is on the inside. I call this "conditional happiness" since we choose it only when our worldly conditions are acceptable.

Yet these moments of joy may also present a problem: How can we make them last? How can we hold on to them? If we don't make the conditions last, our happiness also disappears. Our culture focuses heavily on romantic love and once we find it, we certainly want it to last so I use that as an example.

Yet we all know that everything will change. Sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly but nevertheless all things do change.

Parents see their little children, whom they want to hold in their arms forever, grow up and fly away into the world. How much courage does it take to love them fully while they are home knowing that one day they'll be gone? What does it mean to fully love something and yet be perfectly OK emotionally when it goes away? Is this even possible? Well, for many people, "This grand plan, it often misses."

Third Stanza

   In a new way I found a new thought
   It truly shows what cannot be bought
   Acceptance is the key
   Done emotionally
   Only this brings the joy that is sought

First I think the thought, "If I emotionally accept this situation exactly the way that it is right now, what will happen? What emotions will I experience? Will I be happy?" Then I carry this thought further into reality by actually embracing the situation emotionally. When I do that, I do experience joy to the same level that I embrace the situation, without clutching it in a desperate way. The fuller the embrace, the deeper the joy.

So the old saying, "You can't buy happiness" seems true to me. And not only is happiness completely free, it's always available! Yes, you can press the happiness button at any time, not just when things meet your approval. Because of that, I call this "unconditional happiness".

The joy experienced by both the conditional and unconditional approach is the same joy, only the self-imposed requirements are different.

Indeed, happiness is simply a choice that you make at every moment.

Fourth Stanza

   I now clearly see what I can do
   The gift of the now it offers two
   Choose a smile or a frown
   Pick an up or a down
   Like magic it flows matching my view

The present moment is like a gift, a "present". And it's a magical gift that becomes what you make it. The attitude that you hold as you unwrap the present determines whether your experience is joyful or sorrowful. This is true for each and every moment regardless of any outer circumstances.

If you bring an attitude of acceptance and embrace, you will experience the emotions of oneness, peace and joy. If you bring an attitude of rejection, you will experience the emotions of separation, frustration, fear and pain.

If someone cuts you off in traffic, our society almost demands angry thoughts, a hateful attitude and even a rude hand gesture. Similarly, our society forbids you to emotionally embrace moments that are connected with injury, sickness, death or tragedy and requires you to judge these things as "bad" and unacceptable.

Do you really want to follow society's dictates when they only lead to suffering?

Fifth Stanza

   Plant different seeds take new action
   Don't be afraid work with elation
   In the heart what we sow
   We soon see in the flow
   A spiritual farmer's transaction

Here I underline the idea that just because you emotionally accept everything about the present moment doesn't mean that you can't work for new things to come forth. If you see disharmony or injustice around you, you may choose to work towards bringing forth your preferred outer conditions of peace and justice.

Indeed, the very process of peacefully accepting the current outer conditions is what will help make that shift happen. The seeds of emotion that we plant in our hearts bring about corresponding conditions in the outer world after the time of incubation passes.

But the subject of creation is a tricky one. Many teachers claim that you can be, do and have anything that you want, that you are limited only by your imagination, your thoughts and your discipline.

Although I do not hold that view, I do believe that most people would greatly benefit by learning what I call "conscious creation" rather than using the habitual, reactive "unconscious creation" seen all throughout society.

The first step in conscious creation is to make a distinction between 'inner creation' and 'outer creation'.

Inner creation is the creation of your emotions, your personal subjective experience of the immediate moment. The significance of this cannot be overstated since these are the actual experiences that make up your entire life!

Inner creation instantly creates any human emotion from pure agony to total ecstasy. Each and every human being can experience all of these emotions. And, while we all can create these emotions consciously by choosing our thoughts and attitude, most people unconsciously create them with habitual thoughts and reactions.

Outer creation is a process that unfolds through time. It's the attraction of people, things and events into your life. These are all outer conditions.

I don't believe that all outer conditions are available to everyone. In other words, we all have different menus, so to speak. One person may be able to become world famous and yet another person, seemly similar in every respect, may achieve only minor success, as measured by society, even though she or he works wisely and diligently with a positive attitude.

Nonetheless, we all have numerous choices and certainly many of them will be in harmony with our personal growth.

It's somewhat like a farmer. He may choose to plant several crops and put forth all the appropriate effort but the farmer has no guarantee that anything will grow at all.

Normally, most of his crops do grow. In addition to the crops, he may also get some weeds or other unexpected plants. On rare occasion, a severe drought and heat wave may stifle the crops completely leaving nothing but dirt. And if the farmer does not plant any crops, he might face only the weeds whose seeds the wind has delivered.

Your thoughts and attitude instantly create your emotions of the moment and your thoughts, attitude, emotions and beliefs, which are habitual thoughts, attract the conditions of the outer world as time unfolds. The outer reflects the inner and it all begins with a thought. When you are aware of the process, you can consciously choose. When you are unaware of the process, you just react habitually, usually following the dictates of society.

So I encourage people to consciously work toward new things. Yes, plant some crops! But don't harshly blame yourself if it does not turn out the way you had envisioned. Just accept it as "what is" and move forward. No one can know exactly what the future will bring. And remember, God may have a big surprise for you at any moment! What would life be like without surprises?

Sixth Stanza

   Though I do love the world as it is
   I fancy more caring and kindness
   Everyday a new start
   Peace and love in my heart
   Here and now sweet heaven arises

Here I state that I would like to bring forth more caring and kindness. With every new moment, I have the opportunity to place peace and love into my heart and then nurture these seeds through time.

If I hold emotional judgment in my heart in the form of frustration, anger or hatred regarding the current conditions of the world, those emotional seeds will, in time, bring forth new corresponding disharmonious outer expressions such as tension between other people and perhaps even violence or war.

Since I may also emotionally reject the new outer conditions that arise, I may find myself stuck in a circle of unconscious creation, a circle of disharmony. This is basically what is happening all throughout the world today in every aspect of society.

It is important to note that the circle of unconscious creation is a private, personal experience under the direct control of each individual. Yes, there are also dynamic energetic connections between people but the important point is that each individual has control over their own thoughts, which is the origin of their emotional experience, which, in turn, attracts the outer events as time unfolds.

Yes, we reap what we sow yet we can make a shift towards personal peace by consciously choosing harmony and kindness and by letting go of judgment. This, in time, will bring forth new peaceful outer conditions. Try it yourself and see what arises!

Yet sometimes very difficult situations arise, such as the passing of a loved one. The idea is to respond to what arises in a natural, genuine way as free from judgmental thought as possible. In other words, I don't necessarily think that the goal is to be happy all the time, I think that the goal is to be fully alive in the moment!

Animals experience fear in a natural and genuine way but only at the appropriate times. They also experience joy and sadness. Similarly, we can experience these emotions as part of the natural flow of life without being chained to the pains the past or in constant fear of what the future may bring.

When you find yourself feeling deep sorrow, don't be afraid of it or judge it, dive into it head first! Be fully alive! You may surprise yourself by discovering that while it can be a very uncomfortable emotion, after it passes, your true essence, your awareness, is not damaged at all.

Life is a package deal. Birth eventually leads to death.

Be alive with such fullness that even if the emotion is deep sorrow, as this emotion courses through your being resonating with every cell, there is still an underlying healthy sense of tremendous vitality that comes from your fearless thrusting of yourself into the moment with the thought: "I AM ALIVE!! I am a human being with the power to feel all human emotions! And these emotions will never harm me!"

There is no such thing as "badness". Is it really bad to be sad? It is the constant running around in such a way so as to avoid what we normally call "bad" and seek out what we call "good" that brings us an unnatural life.

Unawakened people focus on getting everything they want. Mystics know that they can safely experience and embrace whatever shows up!

Embrace the whole of life and you will embrace the whole of God!

Seventh Stanza

   God and creation are one not two
   Like water and ice they differ to you
   Diverse forms nothing more
   Both the same at their core
   All things divine though hidden from view

The idea of God and creation being the same reality in different forms is one of my favorite topics. It's my definition of mysticism.

One analogy that I like is liquid water and ice. They both are H2O, which stands for the eternal divine essence. This essence can take different forms which results in different properties, different characteristics. If you did not know the truth, you might be certain that liquid water and ice have nothing in common with each other. Yet these wildly different forms share the exact same essence.

Is this what's going on with God and creation? The mystic says, "Yes!" And the implications are mind-blowing!

With this mystical understanding, you will perceive every act as a divine act, every thought as a divine thought, every emotion as a divine emotion and every thing as the divine in physical form. You are not simply connected to God, every aspect of your being is divine. God is not just deep within you at a special place, you are divine at every level!

Eighth Stanza

   Can it be true though hidden from you
   God's magic trick to show up as you
   Both the good and the bad
   All the glad and the sad
   One Grand Spirit enlivens the crew

Most of my experience with poetry is reading Dr. Seuss to my nieces. I love Dr. Seuss and this entire poem is meant to have a playful, bouncy Dr. Seuss tone to it. While the poem is meant to be fun and childlike, it also asks some very deep questions such as, "Can it be true, though hidden from you? God's magic trick, to show up as you!"

The line, "One Grand Spirit enlivens the crew!" expresses the mystical idea that there is only one spirit, only one consciousness, that of the eternal divine essence, which animates all of life!

It's like there are billions of hand puppets on earth, all apparently different people, animals and plants. But when we see beyond the illusion of separateness to the full picture of what is really taking place, we see that there is only one puppet master with billions of hands animating it all! What a miracle! What a mystery!

Ninth and Tenth Stanzas

   Give the embrace no matter the face
   At home and afar yes everyplace
   Rock and dirt tree and vine
   She and he all divine
   What is not God I could find no trace

   Each part of God like drops in the sea
   Connected to all what mystery
   A genuine embrace
   Of the whole human race
   The power to make new history

Once the mystic sees the whole world as the eternal divine essence in physical form, everything becomes precious and sacred. Deep compassion for all people, animals and even plants springs forth automatically.

Yet before we realize the mystic's view, while we are still tricked by the illusion of separateness, we really can see that we are all at least connected to one another like a big family. If we turn that connection into a genuine embrace, we will create lasting peace.

Eleventh Stanza

   I know that most consider it odd
   The mystic's view its picture broad
   This fresh view could it be
   With new eyes now I see
   To love it all is to love like God

Why should you love the entire world, each and every person on it and everything they do? If you get to the point where you see everything as God and the unfolding of the divine process, it's easy.

But what about before that point? What if you are not yet able to see or feel God in everything?

Consider the following. If God did not want something to exist, it would not exist. If God was truly against something happening, it would not happen. For whatever reason, God allows everything that comes forth.

Those are some interesting thoughts for you to ponder.

And those thoughts lead into a pretty big question: Does God really love it all? Does God love each and every person? Does God joyfully accept each and every event? Birth and death? Every experience there is? Ecstasy and agony? Is it possible that God truly loves all of creation?

Without even having to answer those questions, you can ask yourself some even more important questions:

Can you love it all?

Will you love it all, simply because you can?

Do you dare give it a try?

What would happen to you if you did?

What would you become if you really did love it all?

And you can answer these questions but only by doing it and watching what happens. This is not a theory, this is an experience that only you can give to yourself. And that experience will bring wisdom that can never be forgotten or taken away.

You are the eternal divine essence of love and peace. That is what you are. It never changes. This is why you can have a direct personal experience of God! Now, you can ignore what you are and you can pretend to be other things. You can create other experiences by tying these fundamental divine elements of love and peace into a tight knot of frustration, fear, hatred and pain but your essence is always the same, pure love and perfect peace.

When you look at the world through the eyes of a mystic and see everything as divine, you will love it all automatically. It's what happens when you drop the habitual, judgmental thoughts of social consciousness. This is the treasure awaiting all who are willing to embrace it.

Do you have the courage? Will you do it?

Will you love like God?


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